March 27th, 2014
Looks like this may be the end of Jaime and I. I haven't had
the funds for gas money in order to see her much lately. Today I had a Doctors
appointment on San Dimas so I thought it would be cute to head to my grams,
give her time to get Jacob fed and such, then slip over and surprise her.
That all back fired completely.
Once I was able to get out of there I slipped over and
texted her, didn't get a reply but saw her curtains move and thought the game
was up and she saw me so I went to the door and rang a few times but no answer.
Then my over active imagination started to think that maybe she didn't want to
see me. So I left and then apologized for just showing up via text. She replied
with something along the lines of she thought I was trying to "catch her
doing something" which was not even close but I guess I can see her point.
That led to a phone conversation in which she said she felt like I was pulling
away and that I wasn't trying to give her what she wanted.
That in itself floored me, because I have given every bit of
me that I can, that I know how to. I guess it just isn't enough.
This is definitely it though, if I couldn't make a relationship
work with someone as awesome as her, I am truly doomed to loneliness.
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